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posted by [personal profile] thefairymelusine at 03:56am on 09/02/2010 under ,
Depression appears to be fading, which is good. I made it out of the house for several hours today, during which I got a septum piercing to commemorate Always So Free (I'm now doing one per production. There will be a picture when I have access to a camera I can connect to a computer) , drank chai and read about 200 pages of "Rampant" (a Young Adult novel about killer unicorns, and the virgin descendants of Alexander the Great who are supposed to hunt them down), bought orange hair dye and generally managed not to have panic attacks.

I made the mistake of not binding all last week, which left me feeling rubbish and made an already there depression worse, and having horrible thoughts about self harm and dressing as female to psychologically self harm (I have a nasty bit inside my head that thinks of all the ways I can hurt/upset myself really badly). This is evidence that I should probably mind myself better in post production weeks, which past productions have shown. But I'm binding again this week, and feeling much better (and the orange hair and piercings help)

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