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thefairymelusine at 11:28pm on 11/02/2018
thefairymelusine at 11:28pm on 11/02/2018 I turn 29 tomorrow (Monday). I am feeling a bit odd about it- I have been in quite a bad depressive episode for a while and it has led to some weird thoughts About Mortality, and my social life is weird at the moment (often because of lack of money and being disabled make doing things hard, and most of my spoons are going on academic work).
I am also going to a rheumatology appointment at 11am on today which is Very Unbirthdayish, and means that I am braced for "surprise, you are in pain for [horrible reason]" or "we are going to continue going with fibromyalgia as a diagnosis, just live with stuff, maybe you could avoid stress".
(I had a lovely party last year, but it was a trifle blighted by an acquaintance taking offence at me being insufficiently grateful about being hugged against my issues during a panic attack when I had gone outside to compose myself, and then texting me the following day (my actual birthday) to tell me that this was awful and then telling me I was a manipulative and Machiavellian narcissist, which meant I spent several hours in tears).
I am, however, going to see Hamilton and I am excited about this. I have been listening to the soundtrack again, and am psyched.
And I had a nice lunch with a friend today and had a voucher for a free bottle of prosecco, and saw another friend . So all of that was good.
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