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posted by [personal profile] thefairymelusine at 11:13am on 15/10/2014 under , , ,
1) Had a proper chat with Friend I Talk To Most Days for a bit last night, which was nice.

2) Also did DIY hairdressing and my hair is no longer too long. There is a bit I ended up correcting semi successfully, but I think it looks good. Will put pictures on Flickr later.

3) Have a lecture on Jorge Luis Borges later, and really, really, really enjoyed his stories. (Had to only read them in daylight, if possible, because they hit a particular brand of ideas based terror which I cannot deal with if tired and nightmaring, but that's kind of proof of how good they are)

4) Managed to get to breakfast today, which I didn't yesterday.

5) More yarn arrived for my scarf. I get hopelessly nervous about posting about craft projects, because my knitting is at the "knit  rectangles in yarn you like using" stage, but I am now onto the third ball of yarn for the scarf so I feel that maybe I will not jinx it. (My baby sister got me a ball of Katia Inca yarn as a Christmas present last year, and I am trying to finish this scarf in the same yarn for Christmas this year. It goes in stages, with sudden spurts when I have a bout of insomnia as knitting is the most calming thing. ) 

6) Again, am always nervous about talking about or showing writing at the moment, but have started working on a project and am trying to keep going with it. (Again, giving myself arbitrary deadlines)

7) My baby sister also linked me to this webcomic: Princess Princess which is really cute. 

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posted by [personal profile] thefairymelusine at 11:23am on 26/03/2013 under , ,
 I'm really enjoying being 24. Alright, my month or so of being 24 has involved a lot of horrible stuff (favourite auntie dying, interpersonal badness, getting physically ill several times, wanting to set fire to the news media, horrible things happening to friends, recurrence of some bad mental health stuff, my mental health theatre group closing, other stuff)

But... I just really like this age. For the following reasons:
  • I feel like enough has happened to me, as a person, to be a decent writer. I don't feel that every time I mine my own experiences for something this means that character is me, or a better/worse/nicer me. I don't WANT to be my characters so much now, but I also don't feel as obliged to be a performative version of me at all times, which is lovely
  • I have noticed a distinct drop in how often I'm ID-d, regardless of presentation. I think this may be for various reasons, one of which is that my friends and I now will be doing something like "going for a quiet drink after Sunday mass" and also have perfected the art of walking into a 'spoons and collapsing at a table/going to the bar in the traditional "oh my god I need a drink" fashion
  • My time offline and out of being social appears to have done wonders for my ability to be social and make friends. Like, I can start chatting to someone at a demo/gig without my usual freakouts
  • again, while I really wouldn't recommend 6+ years of being on enhanced CPA with mental health teams, and spending a lot of time and energy on managing a mental illness, it's now got to the point where I know myself, I know my intersecting mental health conditions, I've spent quite a lot of time in therapy and its... less effort. I would actually even be able to say that I think my six years of mental health treatment have been a good thing (funny isn't it, that it took me quite a while to actually be able to think of Being Medically Treated For Mental Health Issues as a Good Thing, in a way that Being Medically Treated For A Physical thing is something I'd probably regard as a net gain/not a bad thing.
  • I have reached critical mass of Anecdotes, which is brilliant. I have a decent and wide ranging supply, which I am still nourishing regularly
  • Just in general, I have a level of confidence I never thought I'd have. It feels mostly AMAZING


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